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Assessment-Sometimes we all need to conduct a honest, biblically based assessment or evaluation of our lives. This assessment should include a hard look at our thoughts, feelings and behaviors as well as our strengths and weaknesses. Doing so can help us to identify those areas in our lives that if not dealt with now can cause us problems latter in our lives.

Unfortunately, some of us have been hurt so much in our past that we equate any situation or person that points out a flaw in our lives as the enemy when this is not always the case.  Don’t lie to yourself about yourself and don’t let other people lie either. Face up to your mistakes, realize your triggers, identify the doors in which the enemy can come in, set up precautions and yield to the Lord.

Not being honest about who you are can put you in a situation in which you are blindsided or leave a door open for the enemy to come in. When you ignore or minimize problems, it prevents you from being honest with yourself. It’s ok to want to believe the best about other people or ourselves, but to do so while overlooking blatant character issues or habits is not wise. How many people are in martial counseling now over issues that should have been dealt with before they got married but instead they ignored the issue, convinced themselves that they were different from other people, or told themselves that they could change the person.

The Gospel of Jesus Christ is all about confrontation of issues not ignoring them. The Lord loves you flaws and all which is why He came to redeem us back to Himself. His spirt will lead and guide us into all truth but we have to ask Him for the power to be honest and to repent. Don’t minimize, overlook or make excuses.  You don’t have to do that, because the Spirt of God in you can handle you.  Some people minimize problems, shortcomings or weaknesses because they feel that by identifying problems they are somehow being disloyal to the person, to God or to themselves. Don’t do that.  Identify your triggers, bring them to the cross and be free. Not being honest keeps you in bondage to your flaws and puts you in a situation in which you are pretending to be something that you are not. For example, how many people are dealing with lust, anger and fear but who are going to church Sunday after Sunday pretending to be free. Don’t pretend when you can be free in Jesus. When you are honest the enemy can’t keep you in bondage with fear. Fear that people will know what you are thinking, fear that you will say the wrong thing, fear that people will not understand, fear that you don’t fit in, fear of judgement etc. The key to walking in the liberty in which Jesus Christ has made you free is to be honest. Remember a Biblically based assessment is not afraid to look at both the good and bad, a biblically based thought pattern does not walk around only looking at the good in life or thinking positive, instead a Biblically based mindset takes into account both the good and evil and biblically takes an honest look at what needs to be changed.


Trigger – anything, as and act or event, that serves as a stimulus and initiates or precipitates a reaction or series of reactions (http://www.dictionary.com/browse/trigger)


Proverbs 26:2

 As the bird by wandering, as the swallow by flying, so the curse causeless shall not come.


1 John 2 1-3

My little children, these things write I unto you, that ye sin not. And if any man sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous:  And he is the propitiation for our sins: and not for ours only, but also for the sins of the whole world.  And hereby we do know that we know him, if we keep his commandments.

No Excuse

Do You Want to Stop Church Leaders from taking advantage of members? Do you want members to stop taking advantage of church leaders? Then become an emotionally and spiritually whole Christian.


Emotionally and spiritually whole Christians know that they were created by God for a purpose, have biblically based self-esteem and understand that they have worth. Emotionally and spiritually whole Christians understand that they have problems, issues, sin etc. but they do not let those factors keep them from confessing their faults, desiring to be what God called them to be or make excuses. Emotionally and spiritually whole Christians understand that they cannot allow people to use their unresolved feelings of fear, rejection, anger, past hurts and pain against them as believers. Emotionally and spiritually whole Christians’ understand that they are responsible for reading their word, for praying, for studying and for being stewards over their own relationship with Jesus Christ. They do not solely rely on another human being to tell them what God is saying and what He requires. Emotionally whole Christians bring their issues to the Lord, live a life of repentance and understand just how much the Lord loves them. You see when we understand just how much the Lord loves us we will not be afraid to cast our fears, our sins, our mistakes, our hurts, the pain we caused and our weaknesses onto Him.

The stronger or emotionally healthy we are the less chance we will fall prey to the flesh (ideas, emotions, behaviors that are contrary to the Word of God), and emotionally unhealthy and manipulative practices of other people. In contrast, when we are emotionally unhealthy it is hard for us to discern the Word of God both as a hearer and as a speaker. For example, when we are emotionally unhealthy we focus more on some scriptures while ignoring others because we are trying to protect ourselves from being hurt. We confuse the truth of the scripture with words of rejection or we allow other people to prosper off of us because we are afraid to step out on the Word of God and be what He called us to be. When we are emotionally unhealthy we use the scripture as a defense that allows us to live with our weakness as opposed to being the overcomer that God called us to be. When we are emotionally unhealthy we use the scriptures to protect us from being hurt, to manipulate and to make people feel guilty. We separate ourselves from people who are stronger or emotionally healthier in the areas in which we are not and we form groups with other emotionally unhealthy people and call it a fellowship. When we are emotionally unhealthy we misread the motives of others and overlook good spiritual leaders or people who are only trying to help us.

Over the last year many of us have witnessed the public humiliation of some of those in leadership. Those people, who after repeated warnings from God, chose not to repent and as such were publically exposed. Their public exposure caused many people to feel betrayed, hurt and to question God. But to you people I would say not so fast.

First, please do not get caught off guard or become discouraged by the weakness of others or by your own struggles. It is in the nature of man to be weak, and as long as we live in this body we are going to have fleshly issues to deal with. The issue is not the sin but what we do with our sin or struggles.

Galatians 5:16-21 (Amplified)But I say, walk habitually in the [Holy] Spirit [seek Him and be responsive to His guidance], and then you will certainly not carry out the desire of the sinful nature [which responds impulsively without regard for God and His precepts].  For the sinful nature has its desire which is opposed to the Spirit, and the [desire of the] Spirit opposes the sinful nature; for these [two, the sinful nature and the Spirit] are in direct opposition to each other [continually in conflict], so that you [as believers] do not [always] do whatever [good things] you want to do.  But if you are guided and led by the Spirit, you are not subject to the Law.  Now the practices of the sinful nature are clearly evident: they are sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality (total irresponsibility, lack of self-control), idolatry, sorcery, hostility, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, disputes, dissensions, factions [that promote heresies], envy, drunkenness, riotous behavior, and other things like these

Unfortunately, some people yield more to their flesh then others. Some people not only yield to their flesh, they embrace and they live in the flesh, they make excuses, they even try to mix the flesh with the things of the spirit which is why the body of Christ looks the way it looks now. Unfortunately, the Lord would want us to know that His holiness will not and cannot be mixed with anything else, He is pure and He is Holy. Any time you try to mix Him with something that is impure it will not work, because He is sovereign and He stands alone.

Secondly, to those of you who were hurt by the failures of others, don’t lose focus on your destiny by becoming concerned with the sins of others. Focus on Jesus Christ who is the author and finisher of your faith. He gave us His word and His spirt. Man is not our example, the Word is. We have no excuse.


Romans 2:1 Therefore you have no excuse or justification, everyone of you who [hypocritically] [a]judges and condemns others; for in passing judgment on another person, you condemn yourself, because you who judge [from a position of arrogance or self-righteousness] are habitually practicing the very same things [which you denounce].

In fact, it is arrogant to think that you can live in rebellion to the word of God and then get angry when you discover that a Pastor or some leader you trusted is living in rebellion as well.

What do I mean? Well, If I go to Church every Sunday or I read my bible and I continue to do those things that are contrary to the Word and the Spirt of God such as lie, cheat, beat my husband , etc. am I waking in the spirit or the flesh? Am I walking in rebellion to the Word of God or harmony? Well, that is easy I would be walking in the flesh, which is contrary to the Word of God. Well, if I go to church one Sunday and find out that my Pastor cheated on his wife or committed some other sin, then aren’t we both wrong? The only difference is that his sin is not my sin.

With that being said, those in spiritual leadership bear the heavier burden. That is why those of us in leadership should spend time in the Word being honest with God and ourselves. We need to seek God for emotional and spiritual wholeness through the Word of God, we should seek counseling from others and be honest about our limitations. If you are in leadership you don’t have to be perfect you should however be honest.

You see, we all have flesh (those ways that are contrary to the Word of God) to deal with. Unfortunately many of us think we have to pretend like we never make mistakes or that we don’t have struggles. The problem is not that we have issues or sin in our life the problem is that we don’t bring those sins to Jesus Christ so that He can give us a plan to deal with those issues. Some issues are not going to go away immediately there are some behaviors that we are involved in that will only subside as we walk and lean on the Holy Spirt.

With that being said, we have to demand spiritual and emotional wholeness from ourselves and from those who lead us. The reason we have so much unrepented sin in the pulpit and the pews is because we are being lead to many times by emotionally unhealthy people who are leading emotionally unhealthy people who do not want to allow the Word of God to make them whole.

When we become whole spiritually and emotionally then it will be harder for those of us in the pews to be misled by those in the pulpit. And it will be harder for people to become a church leader without being emotionally and spiritually whole.

Do you feel like preachers are hypocrites? Do you wonder how a married pastor could preach the Gospel of Jesus Christ every Sunday and have a mistress on the side? How a Pastor could molest children and then lead a prayer meeting? Well ask yourself a few questions.

Are you walking in obedience to the Word of God? Are you trying to live your life according to the Word of God as opposed to trying to make the Word of God fit your way of thinking? Are you resisting the urge to pick and choose the scriptures you want to follow? Are you reading your bible for yourself? Are you praying and following the leading of the Holy Ghost? Are you repenting of your sins?

Well if you answered No to these questions, then the reason why we have preachers who are hypocrites, abusive, beating their wives, having sex with members, stealing money, sexually abusing children and getting away with it is partly our fault.

When we as Christian believers refuse to walk in obedience to the Word of God, when we try to make the Word of God fit our way of thinking, and when we pick and choose the scriptures we want to follow then we are walking in rebellion to the plan of God for our lives. Unfortunately some of us really do not understand Grace. Grace gives us the ability to overcome our sin not just make excuses. According to the book of Romans we are free from the law of sin and guilt (Please read the Book of Romans).

You see, when we do not really want to develop a life of prayer, a life of fasting or a life that conforms to the Holy Spirit then we really don’t demand much from our leaders. We prefer to focus on the music, on the plays, on the entertainment as opposed to the Gospel of Jesus Christ for fear that we will have to live right.

Some of us keep getting tricked by spiritual leaders because we don’t want to do what the bible tells us to do. But what a minute, if we are walking in rebellion ourselves can we really in good faith correct anyone else. Some of us are being dishonest with God in our actions, the Preacher is being dishonest with us in his or her actions, and if we become angry at the preacher we need to be angry at ourselves as well.

Let me insert this, we can all remind each other of the scripture and point out error. The reason why some of us don’t do this is because we think by doing so we are hypocrites but that is not true. (Ephesians 4:15, Matthew 18-15-18, James 5:19-20). The problem is not the sin, the problem is the rebellion or the refusal to repent. When we refuse to repent, then we are open to correction.

But when people who are in the pews become grounded in the Word of God then it will be harder for them to be taken advantage of by others. When we become emotionally whole and commit to being honest with ourselves about ourselves then we will not be such easy prey. Again, the issue is not the fact that we have a weakness. We are growing in the things of God and we will make mistakes and sometimes even sin along the way. The problem however, is what we do when we sin. Do we repent or try to cover up our faults? Do we pretend like we don’t have issues, bash people and then when our sin is revealed feel as if no one should talk about it?

Whether you are a leader in a local assembly or a member, people of God we have no excuse. We have The Word of God and the Spirt of God to lead and guide us into all truth. Don’t just rely on what you call “discernment” because if you are walking in disobedience to The Word of God then your “discernment” may be deceptive. Instead trust the Word of God.

We all have issues, but we have to understand that we all have a God who loves us. We do not have to walk around acting as if we always do everything the Word of God requires. We just have to want to be made whole. You see, it’s one thing to sin and then to repent, it’s another thing to sin and refuse to repent. Its’ one thing to recognize that you are a sinner in need of a savior but it’s another thing to feel as if The Word of God should change for you. Just be honest with yourself and with God. We are all a work in progress. There are many reasons why some of us are easy prey for spiritual leaders who do not want to repent and why spiritual leaders fall, below are just a few:


  1. We give in to negative feelings. Negative feelings like self-pity, apathy, rage, and false beliefs concerning our self- worth and abilities, can join with feelings of hopelessness to destroy us. From a spiritual perspective, feelings of hopelessness can lead to the erosion of our trust in God and to the ultimate destruction of our faith. But don’t let this happen to you. Constantly remind yourself that God planned your birth, and that He has a purpose for you being here. So continue to hope and to trust in God until you can begin to see your life in the way in which He sees it. Place your hope in Him, and watch Him lead and guide you into a life full of peace and joy. Negative feelings can make you feel that you can’t do what God is calling you to do, negative feelings about yourself can cause you to settle for being the mistress of a married Pastor. Negative feelings about your self can cause you to always need someone else to affirm you.
  2. Mistakes. When we think that we have made too many mistakes we minimize the abilities that God has given us because we think it’s too late or that we can’ try again. But please understand, that God is mindful of our struggles and is very much aware of any limitations that we may have but He is still expecting us to bear fruit. In St Matthew 21:19/20 Jesus Christ approached a fig tree expecting to see figs but instead he only saw leaves. He cursed the tree and it withered away. He cursed the tree because it was a fig tree with no figs and as such was useless. What would cause a fig tree, in the middle of fig season to have no figs? What is keeping you from bearing fruit? Find out and make a change. Don’t be like the fig tree in Mathew 21:20. God created you for a purpose. You do have something to add to this World. No one is better than you. You made a mistake, have a problem, committed a sin last night and think you may sin again tonight. Keep moving in God, don’t give up. We serve a God that can be touched by the feelings of our infirmities, and with the aid of His spirit we can walk in the Word of God without condemnation. We can live our life to the fullest and He will show us how. Don’t spend so much time helping someone else to build their dream and forget your own.
  3. Not Meditating On The Word Of God -You must mediate on the Word of God and allow it to transform your thoughts, feelings, and behaviors into what is written. When you mediate on the Word of God your thoughts will begin to reflect the confidence of God. Remember, the scriptures through the Holy Spirit are designed to lead us and to guide us into all truth, but they can’t do that if we don’t apply the scriptures to our lives. You are going to think something anyway, so why not infuse your thoughts with strength from the Word of God? (Howard, 2000). While, the Word of God will bring peace and hope to your mind please understand that the Word of God is not merely a “positive thinking book,” or a book that ignores the presence of both good and evil. On the contrary, the Word of God is a balanced book that has been inspired by a balanced God. The Word of God is not afraid to confront both the positives and negatives in our lives. Acknowledging both the positive and negative aspects of our lives, affords us with an opportunity to seek God for the answer. For example, it may be true that you have a problem or illness that you can’t solve, but it is also true that you serve a God who is able to provide you with a strategy to overcome that problem. But when you pretend that you do not have a problem or try to cover up your feelings with scriptures you are not really balanced in your thinking you are operating in fear. When confronted with a problem, it’s all right to acknowledge it. Acknowledging the problem does not mean that we do not trust God or that we are not operating in faith.
  4. Fear. Fear keeps us from not operating in faith and becoming easy prey for other people: When we allow fear to keep us from acknowledging the challenges in our lives we can lose valuable time trying to devise ideas or strategies that keep us from feeling any discomfort. In contrast to fear, faith is not afraid to acknowledge a problem because it trusts the problem solver. When we are operating in faith we understand that the power of Jesus Christ, is able to bring about a miracle and deliverance in our lives. Faith keeps us focused on our deliverance while fear prevents us from moving forward. You may be a wife beater, sexual abuser, criminal, liar etc. you do not have to live in fear. Fear puts you in the positon of becoming a victim or a prey to spiritual scam artists. You do not have to hide in secret. You can come boldly to the throne of grace just as you are and He through His Word and Spirt will conform you to His will. Uncontrolled feelings of fear can impede your mobility and cause you to be dependent and limited in your life, as opposed to being victorious in Jesus Christ. A spirit of fear will not only stop you from being all that God wants you to be, but it can trigger the development of untrue thoughts concerning you as a person and your abilities.
  5. Walking in Pride – Pride will make us think and feel that we “should” or “ought to have” what we want and that God does not know what He is doing. Pride will make us feel that we are getting the short end of the stick and keep us focused on our needs. But it takes a sense of humility to let go of what we want and to trust God to answer our prayers in the way that He deems necessary. As people of God, we must learn to accept the sovereign plan of God in our lives even when it is not the plan that we desire. God has the final say in our lives and when we get to the point that we can really believe that He is with us, we can accept His will and trust that He has our best interest at heart.
  6. Hopeless Feelings – Hopeless feelings can cause us to act as if our life has no meaning and to give up on our dreams. If you think that your life is hopeless then that is how you will behave and feel. But don’t let feelings of hopelessness have the final say so. Whenever you find yourself engaging in hopeless thoughts stop and ask yourself, what are you feeling hopeless about and what can you do about it? The power of life and death is in your mouth and God has given you power over every enemy. Enemies like low self-esteem, doubt and hopelessness do not have a chance.  

7. Rejection – When you allow a fear of rejection to control your life, you limit your potential and your ability to move forward in the purpose and plans that God has for you. Yes, we may be rejected sometimes but we must always remember that even when man rejects us, Jesus Christ is always in our corner. Feelings of rejection like other negative emotions can trigger or open the door for a host of other unhelpful thoughts and behaviors. For instance, guilt, a poor self-image, a tendency to degrade one’s self, anger, hatred, self-pity, distrust, and a lack of self-confidence, are just some of the negative feelings that can grow out of the seed of rejection. And feelings like denial, avoidance, anger, and hostility are just a few of the man-made emotional defenses that we use to control the pain of rejection. But whatever you cover up can’t be healed.  Covering up our feelings can cause us to go through life being on the defensive, and again easy prey for other people. Skilled manipulators can spot someone who is walking in the spirt of rejection. But please know that God wants to heal you and to make you completely free from the influence of your past. Because of the resurrecting power of Jesus Christ you don’t have to spend the rest of your life being controlled by a fear of rejection or any other negative emotion. Jesus Christ did not rise again just so a fear of rejection, or the defenses that you have created to deal with your hurts can rule your present or control your future. Living with a fear of rejection can cause you to not only shy away from people and certain circumstances, but it can also keep you from embracing your future and the call that God has for your life. Yes, you do have a call of God on your life and there will be times that walking with God will require you to move out of your comfort zone and run the risk of being rejected for that call.


8. Fear of Failure -Please understand that there may be many times in our lives in which we will experience failure, but because of Jesus Christ, failure does not have to be the end of the matter. We must always remember, that as we continue to trust God in the midst of whatever is going on in our lives, things will work out for our good. But if we allow a fear of failure to keep us from trying again, we may never know the full potential of Jesus Christ inside of us. Allowing a fear of failure to control our lives will cause us to hide from responsibility, run away from challenges, or to just give up totally. Nursing a fear of failure can cause us to spend the rest of our lives playing it safe, and trying to protect ourselves from being hurt. But God never called us to play it safe.

9. Past Hurts- Allowing emotions associated with our past hurts to negatively influence our lives can lead to a variety of unhealthy behaviors and thoughts that can prevent us from trusting the Word of God in the now. Living in the shadows of past hurts can cause us to react in the present to something that happened in the past. James 1:8 states that, “a double minded man is unstable in all his ways,” and St. Mathew 9:17, warns us against “putting new wine in old wineskins.” When we try to cover up our hurts as opposed to allowing God to heal them, we are not free. When we are trying to cover up our feelings and hurts using man-made defenses, we are in a sense attempting to place new wine in old wineskins. For instance, in order to shield ourselves from the hurts of our past we may find ourselves withdrawing from people, masking our feelings with alcohol, getting into abusive relationships, and or allowing feelings of rejection to control our lives. Additionally, unhealed past hurts can cause us to be oversensitive in certain areas of our lives, and to misinterpret or to react inappropriately to things and people around us. When we internalize the hurts of the past we can spend the rest our lives allowing past hurts to control our present, and cause us to reject people who want to love us.

10. Unresolved Anger – Anger is a normal and mostly healthy emotion that can prompt you to make needed changes in your life or to take action on a particular issue or cause. However, anger is unhealthy when it gets in the way of your relationships with other people, yourself, or even the Lord Jesus Christ. Now the Word of God acknowledges the fact that we all may become angry at times, however some of us have a tendency to either lash out or to suppress our anger more than others. Some of us may have had experiences in our lives that demanded that we protect ourselves emotionally, and sometimes even physically. Because of these experiences, we have had to develop defenses in order to survive. While these defenses may have been helpful in the past they may not be appropriate now. For example, defenses that bring with them additional negative emotional baggage, are problems. However, learning how to control our thinking may be the most important strategy that any of us can develop in our attempt to appropriately manage our feelings, especially our anger. Understand that we all have the ability to get angry, but if we have a problem effectively controlling our anger we must seek God for the root cause and a strategy to manage it.

11. Guilt — Guilt can either be good in that it drives us closer to Jesus Christ or bad in that it pushes us further away. For example, a bad feeling of guilt is one that does not lead to a true change of heart and keeps us separated from the love of God. A bad sense of guilt will generate momentary sorrow, condemnation, and feelings of remorse, but produce no Godly change (Hunt, 2000). Bad guilt will cause us to make excuses, to rehearse our faults over and over again in our thoughts, but still not come to Jesus Christ. In comparison, guilt in which the Spirit of God convicts us will cause us to evaluate ourselves and to make biblically based life changes. Godly motivated guilt will prompt us to repent from the error of our ways, and commit to a new way of life according to the Word of God. This guilt will bring about a sense of sorrow, but it will also cause us to bring our behavior in line with the Word of God. Guilt that leads to Godly sorrow will bring about repentance, and repentance will bring an increase in our spiritual life. In contrast, a false sense of guilt will only cause us to focus on what we want and our feelings as opposed to the love of God. You can’ change the past and sometimes you can’t always go back and apologize.

12. Unbelief —Unfortunately, unbelief will prevent you from submitting to God. Unbelief is a counterfeit belief system that is contrary to the Word of God. Unbelief in the flesh resents the truth found in The Word of God. So if you have been using unbelief (any thought contrary to The Word of God) for a certain amount of time you have to pray it out of your spirit. For example, God told you that He would never leave you but unbelief tells you that He will. Your flesh joins in by bringing to your remembrance all of the people who left you and treated you bad. This image reinforces the feelings of sadness and the thoughts of unbelief. Even when you read The Word of God or when someone tries to encourage you, you reject it because your flesh is so focused on maintaining the false feelings that no one loves you and reinforcing the belief that God is not with you. The bottom line, if you don’t use The Word of God on your unbelief it will take you away from God.

13. Poor study habits. Some of us are just don’t study or pray


In closing, the enemy operates in our flesh (emotions) and if he can keep us in the flesh we will not fulfill the plan that God has for us. He uses the flesh of all types of people to include those who are in leadership to activate our flesh. He operates in secret and in darkness. He is counting on us not being honest with God and using our own fleshly ideas and feelings. One of the keys to an emotionally health church is emotionally and spiritually healthy people. Please pray for our leaders and for our members. The enemy would desire for us to fight each other, when he is really the problem


Isaiah 59: 1-2

59: 1-2 Behold, the Lord’s hand is not shortened, that it cannot save; neither his ear heavy, that it cannot hear: But your iniquities have separated between you and your God, and your sins have hid his face from you, that he will not hear.



Down By The Sea Shore

Down by the Seashore

An Illustration of An Untreated Mental Illness

Min. Constance M. Martin. All Rights Reserved

As kids we played on the beach, hopping from one foot to the other because the sand was so hot. The sand never seemed too hot for adults.  But for us it was hot.  We would run as fast as we could hoping we’d soon reach the end of the hot scorching sand and finally reach the part of the sand where the tide had come in and ebbed out.  The sand went from being light, dry and hot to dark, wet and cool.  The water had left its’ markings giving it a foamy lace edge along the shoreline.  We’d dig our toes in the wet cool sand and sigh with relief.  We were told to stay close to the shoreline where it was safe.  Don’t go too far out in the water we were told. As kids we couldn’t conceptualize the danger of something that held so much fun for us.  


Oftentimes, we would sit at the waters edge and let the waves come up and splash on us.  It seemed to be a game.  As the tides came in stronger, it would sometimes splash on our legs as if it were playing a game of Tag.  Digging the palms of your hands in further in the wet sand and our heels in deeper we waited for the next wave.  With much excitement we tried to anticipate how hard and fast the next wave would be.  Wait for it, wait for it, wait for it…  When the next one came it was bigger and harder and faster, it seemed to lift you a bit and carry you further into the water.  The water seemed to separate at our feet and envelope us in it’s arms taking us yet a little further out.  But wait, let’s look back to the shore.  All the people seemed to be a little bit further away.  That’s okay because even though they were further away they could still see us and we could still see them and if we had gone too far they would let us know.  Now we must stand because the water is getting much stronger and not playing such a gentle game of Tag.  


Then there is always someone in the group who is daring and suggest we try something new.  The suggestion was we turn our backs to the in coming wave and let it knock us over and ride it to the shore.  You see that was exciting because it added a little adventure and a little danger to our game with the waves making it so much more fun than just sitting at the water’s edge.  We’re taken out further and the waves are now bigger, harder and stronger.  


We try walking back to the shore but our feet barely touch bottom and the undercurrent is too strong.  I was not able to swim back to shore because I wasn’t that strong of swimmer.  In my struggle to get back to shore, I panicked and I wasn’t prepared for the next wave.  I wasn’t able to catch the wave and ride it in.  Instead it caught me and took me under.  I got caught in a rip current that took me further under and held me under.  It seems the first thing that happens is your resolve is gone.  All the bravado that you mustered up to take you further than you should have gone had dissipated.  The next to go is your hearing becomes muffled, your nasal passage becomes filled with salty water and your eyes are burning with the salty, murky water. I’m trying to hold my breath because I know if I breathe I will take in this same salty and murky water, which would mean the end.  My arms and legs are going in all directions because I’m fighting and flailing.  At some point my arms began to hurt and they felt as though they would become separated from my body. I could no longer hear the muffled sounds of the people but I could now only hear my own heartbeat and rushing of the water.  I wondered where all the people had gone especially the ones I was playing with.  Did they not see me any longer?  I began to take in water and my chest had started to hurt.  I felt as though I was crying but how could you tell.  It would only be just one more drop of water in the vastness of the ocean.  I could no longer see.  But one thing I always knew was to call on the Name of Jesus and that is exactly what I did.  With Jesus the possibilities are endless.  


When I did became aware of me and my surroundings I was on my knees and crawling to the waters edge coughing and wiping my face.  And then I saw these little white swim shoes, little legs, a black skirted swimsuit on a little lady that I called my grandmother holding my towel, flip-flops and our beach bag.  She never said a word about my distance from the shore or why I was coughing, struggling and crawling.  If she knew anything she didn’t say anything.  That was just the way it was between us. We always had that unspoken and confidential awareness and truth.  She was my stalwart in my storms.  Isn’t God good?


Some of this is a metaphorical and some is literal.  This event did happen.  But the roller coaster ride of emotions is a truth that Bipolar person deals with almost daily, especially if not treated.


Once during a very bad episode someone asked me to tell him what was going on or what I was feeling at that time and what came to mind was how I felt under the water and having no control of my situation or environment; the loss of control is very frightening. But this seemed to be the only way I could describe the desperateness and at that time the helplessness I was feeling.  Even that was an inadequate description.  The magnitude of the inability to do anything about what you are going through is awful, painful and mentally exhausting.  It is significant to express the enormity of the lack of treatment for bipolar and other mental illnesses.


I would be remiss in not saying that misdiagnosis with the  wrong medication is just as harmful  if not even more so than no treatment at all.


Sometimes patients are reluctant in seeking treatment because of the associated stigma and non-support of family, friends and church members.  Family and friends tend to distance themselves from members of their family because of the reflection on them or family; as in they don’t want to be blamed for anything that is wrong.  Or if you seek outside help people outside of the inner family circle will know.  I know you’ve heard that what goes on in this house stays in this house.  Which again shines a supposedly negative light on the dynamics and dysfunctions of the family.  In a couples’ relationship there is the blame factor.  If  your relationship is not working there is the blame of your questionable sanity.  


Then in the faith-based circle (i.e. Christianity) you’re deemed not having enough faith to be delivered from your demons.  I’ve even been told that it is wrong and not scriptural to teach acceptance of your condition and seeking treatment.  I’m fully aware that God didn’t make sickness, disease and/or death and these things come through Satan.   But God gave man the mind to seek knowledge and from these knowledge seeking people we get doctors, nurses, psychiatrists, psychologists and mental health workers, etc.  Just because things are no longer

perfect since the Fall of Man in the Garden Eden do we not seek to fix it? Is it only right to seek treatment for cancer, heart disease, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, etc.?  Why? Is it because physical illnesses and diseases are more tangible and mental illnesses are intangible?




Min. Constance M. Martin






Just Remember


Just Remember
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When it’s 3 in the morning and you can’t sleep that you are…………

When it’s 3 in the afternoon and you can’t get out of the bed that you are…………

When you can’t think clearly because of the voices in your head that you are….

When the voices in your head are getting louder that you are……..

When once muffled voices just keep getting bolder that you are……

When every now and again murmurs in your thoughts turn into constant whispers that you are………..

When someone you don’t know just keeps calling that you are………

When that man on TV just will not shut up that you are……….

When the lady on the bus will not stop staring that you are………

When no one else can see them that you are…………..

When you get back home from your month long trip, spent all of your money and your wife is gone that you are………….

When you try to tell people that you can take a trip, write a book, paint a masterpiece, have a few parties, live it up and enjoy as much sex as you can all in one day and they don’t get it that you are……….

When you can’t remember if you took your medications this morning that you are……….

When you ignore your crisis plan and the warnings that you are………

When your therapist will not call you back that you are……

When you have been depressed all of your life that you are………

When sometimes you are happy and sometimes you are sad that you are…..

When you are not sure if you want to wake up in the morning that you are……

When you have a lot of anger and suicidal thoughts that you are……….

When it feels better to cut yourself then to feel what you feel that you are…..

When you stop taking your medications and start using drugs that you are….

When it hurts too much to stop smoking crack that you are………

When sex and smiles from a stranger feel better than dealing with the pain that you are…….

When you can’t forget about the man that kept coming in your bedroom when you were 10, again and again that you are…….

When they say you are the problem and everything is your fault that you are……

When you ask to speak to the President but you have speak to the police instead that you are……..

When you are the only one who knows that someone is reading everyone’s thoughts that you are……….

When you have told them for the 20


time that the food is poison that you are……

When your thoughts are racing and you can’t stop pacing that you are………


When 911 is called and you don’t know why that you are………

When the Crisis team is at your door again for the third time this month that you are………….

When your neighbors are watching that you are……….

When they take all of your clothes and your shoes at the hospital that you are…….

When you have to quit your job again because they keep following you that you are…

When you realize it’s been a week since you have been to work that you are……

When it feels like the team on the Psychiatric ward are asking too many questions that you are……

When you have to tell your story again and again that you are……..

When the person in the next bed is screaming while you are trying to sleep that you are………..

When the bed on the ward is hard that you are………

When it’s time to take your medications…two pills in the morning, afternoon and evening that you are………

When the medications make you drowsy that you are……..

When you feel like you’re slowing down that you are……….

When no one is listening to you when you talk that you are………

When you get back home and realize that you have been gone a month that you are…….

When the team meeting does not go as planned that you are………

When no one comes to see you or to pick you up that you are……….

When you wonder if they are better off without you that you are………



When your appointment was at 2:00 PM and it’s now three and you’re still waiting that you are……..

When you can’t read the intake packet that you are……..

When you don’t have any money to get to your appointment that you are……..

When you hear your therapist talking about you in the hallway that you are…….

When the agency does not have a token that you are………….

When everyone tries to act like nothing happened that you are……….

When everyone treats you like a child that you are………………..


Living Day To Day

When it’s safer to sleep outside that you are…….

When your medications make you gain weight that you are……..

When your medications don’t work that you are……….

When you’re loved one steals your money or charges you $100.00 to go to the store that you are………

When you don’t have money for your co-pay that you are……

When the shame and embarrassment make you feel worthless that you are……..

When they think you are lazy but the truth is you really don’t feel like doing anything that you are……..

When you would stop talking so fast if you could that you are…….

When your cousin moves in your apartment without your permission and brings along three other friends who all sit around and smoke crack that you are…..

When you are down to your last cigarettes that you are………

When you are afraid to go back to work that you are………..

When you can’t say no because you are afraid of what might happen that you are…….

When your thoughts are all mixed up that you are…….

When everyone else speaks for you and no one listens to you because you have been diagnosed with a mental illness that you are………

When they talk about you with you sitting there because they don’t think you hear them that you are……


For Loved Ones

When you talk to them and they don’t talk to you that you are……

When you tell them to snap out of it and they don’t that you are……

When you feel like you have done all that you can and things don’t change that you are…….

When you keep wondering what you did that you are ………

When no matter how hard you try he won’t stop talking that you are……….

When it’s late at night and he won’t stop laughing that you are……..

When you have been up all night that you are……

When you need to sleep but are afraid of what might happen that you are……

When she prefers to do nothing that you are……..

When she cries all of the time that you are…….

When he throws out all of the food because it’s contaminated that you are…..

When he won’t eat because he feels that he does not need to that you are…..

When you get to the hospital and find out that there are no beds that you are……

When your other child wonders why you can’t play with him that you are……

When you have to take off work again to go look for him that you are……

When it seems like you are the only one who cares that you are…….

When she is being discharged after only being gone 24 hours that you are…..

When the Psychiatrist does not believe that your loved one needs help that you are…….

When the handwritten note from your loved one is all you have that you are……

When you are tired and don’t know what else to do that you are………………………


That Recovery is Possible

A process of change through which individuals improve their health and wellness, live a self-directed life, and strive to reach their full potential.



You Are An Overcomer



I am an overcomer and I won’t be defeated.  I am moving past the rain and looking back on all my pain.

Yes, I am an overcomer and my days ahead are bright. Yes I am an overcomer because I am walking in the light.

I am an overcomer, confident and strong. I am an overcomer and I am going to keep moving on.

Negative thoughts try to stop me but they can’t block me. Hurts and disappointments may come but I won’t be defeated

I am an overcomer, I won’t give up now. I am an overcomer and I am going to keep moving on.

I am an overcomer and I am learning from the past. I am an overcomer, talented and strong.

I am an overcomer gifted and valuable. I am an overcomer and I am going to keep moving on.

I am an overcomer and I won’t’ be defeated. No matter how I feel I won’t give up now.

I won’t be mistreated, I am talented and strong. I am an overcomer and I am going to keep moving on.

Negative words try to haunt me, mistakes try to limit me but I am an overcomer and I won’t give up now.

I may have lost some people and things along the way but each day I live is another day.

My addiction tries to get me down and somedays I feel like giving up.  But I am overcomer and I won’t be defeated.

Sometimes smiling though my tears and laughing through my pain, I am overcomer and I won’t give up now.

You may not understand but don’t count me out I am here for a wonderful purpose so I am going to

Keep moving on.

Yes I am an overcomer, confident and strong. I am an overcomer so I am going to keep moving on.



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